TOPIC: COULD A TRANSGENDER BE CHANGED?

1) HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN A CHRISTIAN?

I believe I have been a Christian since 1990. When I accepted Jesus as my Lord, Savior and Master watching the 700 club in England, UK. My nurturing started in 1995!

2) IN 2-3 SENTENCES DESCRIBE YOUR ENCOUNTER WITH JESUS CHRIST?

I knew something was interfering in my heart, I just couldn't put my finger on it. And when I did find out what it was, I was delighted, It was because I was saved! Knowing Jesus is the best thing that ever happened to me. Now, I don't worry about my family, my relationship with them falling apart, my physical consequences, my friends, and most especially my relationship with God. Jesus has done great signs and wonders in my heart. I can't exchange it with anything in this world!

3) HOW WAS THE TRANSITION FROM A LIFE OF HOMOSEXUALITY TO CHRISTIANITY?

First of all, Let’s call Homosexuality, Perversion! The memory of all my perversions never left me. I have allowed these spirits to live in me for the longest time. anytime if I decide to resurrect them, they'll be back in a flash! But the time element of my relationship with our Lord is very vital in my restoration. Without the Holy Spirit guiding me everyday, would be a disaster! My decision to choose the Way, the Truth and the Life is very important! Freedom is a choice! Freedom meaning, a relax and sound mind on life. I chose that! But for me, my process was a long one! I needed to ask God constantly about wisdom to understand all my anxieties due to the perversion.

The synonym of Homosexuality is rebellion, so are other sins. The reason we rebel against life is because we rebel towards the author of Life Himself! it starts with the parents. If the parents are not bibles based, rebellion starts even from the womb! When a baby is born, all insecurities of the parents are already adopted. Nurtured by the Common sin, pride, it grows. Without the know how, it is but natural for the child to sin. (Gen 20: 4-6)

I had to unscrew the bolts and nuts that the cohorts, authorities and principalities of Satan had imbedded in my heart. Jesus was and is the main Reason I was able to do that. I believe, I did the unscrewing because of the
pain I went through. I had to really say YES to all! Walang labis, walang kulang! LAHAT! Up to this day, I am still in the process of unscrewing. Everyday is a new day of forgiving.

4) WERE YOU A PRACTICING GAY OR ONLY HAD INCLINATIONS?

I always have a funny feeling when I am asked about being Gay. You know, Why? As I felt different from the rest, I never thought of myself as Gay or "Balka". I always thought of my self as a female especially after the
sexchange. I felt right as a female then. If I felt that way then, could I say to my self I was a practicing Homosexual? We'll forget about inclinations. Definitely, I was into something.

As a Christian having an intimate relationship with Christ Jesus, I can say that I was Homosexual because I was born male, had a sexchange, and became born again in Spirit (John 3). Definitely, I had a problem!

5) WHAT MADE YOU RETURN TO CHRIST?

It was a ripe decision. Ripe meaning it is time for me to decide, if I really wanted to be eternally happy. Well, it is not really a choice because there is only one thing to do, That is, to accept Jesus Christ as Lord, Savior and Master. After all the extensive efforts for me to find happiness, I came to the conclusion that there aren't any except Christ. One night, in England, UK, I couldn't sleep. Turned the TV on. There was this program that
dramatized life stories of change. I was so interested because I needed someone to relate to so desperately on change issues. I should go back for further psychiatric evaluations but I was too proud to admit I had a mental
problem. So I resulted in to overnight crying and soul searching. I thought to my self, this has to stop. I could go crazy. So I continued watching the 700 club. I don't know what happened but there was someone inside me talking to me. Telling me things that sounded right. I experimented and magnified this new someone in me and followed His instructions that were totally new to me. Until one day, I saw my feelings for my husband slowly deteriorating. Then I thought what are you telling me? You must be God? I knew my relationship with my husband was wrong and its being taken away! The devil won't do that!

I again had a sudden urge to come home to the Philippines and ask God," What will I do with Steve? If You ask me, I'd rather You do something about it because I wouldn't know what to do. I'd rather stay where I am." He
answered:" Do not worry. I'll take care of you." What have I got to lose? I was convinced It was God I was talking with. So I obeyed and He did as He promised. I went home. And my journey continued...

6) HOW CAN CHURCHES AND CHRISTIANS WITNESS EFFECTIVELY TO THE GAY (homosexual/lesbian) COMMUNITY?

Witnessing for God is a duty of a serious Christian. The Christian does not give his/her 100% to change would have a difficult time. Homosexuals and lesbians are one and the same. Homosexual male and female fall in one category. They have numerous pains starting from the womb until the present. The pain never ends until there are people so narrow in their thinking. If the Church of Jesus Christ would not be different from their views of the world, the so-called Church would be in vain. The Bible clearly states a culture not consistent of the world. It is easy to see if the world puts the homosexuals down , not to mention condemnation, the Church should do the opposite. If one Christian of a loving church has a different view on this and He stumbles a young Christian with a homosexual and weak background, That could be the end of his/her Christian living. It is so important that the Church is working hand on hand with the ministry. Constant teaching of unconditional love and the mention of giving this to homosexuals too, is very helpful. Abandonment is a big pain a homosexual male or female has due to the male dominated society.

7) WHAT ARE THE STRUGGLES OF A CHRISTIAN LIKE YOU?

My struggles are completely different from the regular homosexual. I also have the physical issues on chemical balance. Since I was convicted with not taking female hormones, I am experiencing severe hormonal imbalance. Only the presence of God in me that controls me. Plus the effort of making myself level headed on my emotions. I constantly remind myself that any wrong move could create a vacuum to sin.

Although not all homosexuals are sexually active, a homosexual male struggles on the libido. They are used to having their libido out as often as they can as in most of the sexually active men. The homosexual male’s anatomy is male. So all the functions and expectations are the same with regular male. The difference is the sexual preference. The presence of the people who has pain them in the past if the concept of true forgiveness is not clear, it would be a problem. To think and feel feminine projects confusion to the Christian community. They often have the misconception of believing they could not be changed.

A homosexual female has the same anatomy as a regular female. Again, the difference is the sexual preference. They often have a problem relating with the female gender but would want to protect them. Their struggles are not usually seen in the Filipino setting because we are so used to powerful women.

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